The same song plays on repeat. Anyone looking in would confess to a man gone crazy. No sane person listens to the same song 29 times over by choice. That would be called a questionable decision. One that I made, and in hindsight probably would regret if I ever truly looked in hindsight. The truth is looking at the past was never a way of learning from past mistakes. What does the past mean to me anyways? Most of us just do and think things for the hell of it. It doesn’t make those thoughts and actions any less real, but surely the rationale behind it is not as rational as we’d like to believe. Actions happen and thoughts flow and at the end of the day we’re left scratching each others backs because we all share in the same cause: insanity of the finest degree. Hi, nice to meet you, my name is Will.
Early expectation and hope,
Followed by the calm day,
The way she walked and talked,
Leading me whichever way the evening needed.
A hesitant pause,
a mistaken thought,
Alone I watch the stars at night,
Passing me by as all things must.
She laughed while I did and it was bliss,
She cried as I did and it was hell,
We all know.
But it wasn’t the laughing and crying I wanted to remember.
I only wanted to remember the quiet mornings that we spent, as the world flew to its own pace,
As we once did
Don’t be so cruel,
Look at the world around you,
Cold, barren, and lifeless.
I’ve never thought life was easy.
Yet I remember when the world still shined with opportunity,
And I hold onto the idea,
That just maybe,
Life is still sweet.
Be happy, don’t show those scars you have,
Conceal them even as it burns,
Hide them even when you need help,
You suffer alone, heal while you can,
And in one moment the pain returns,
You can’t escape it.
So let it bleed.
Until you realize,
Nothing could save you,
Make things worse for yourself,
Talk and talk,
Do and do,
Aimless, lost, fighting the shadows you become exhausted.
So close your eyes for a moment,
Do you feel anyone attacking you?
Walk ahead with purpose,
And let the shadows dance.
How can a man stay honest,
Do and say as he pleases,
But not be a fool.
All around people clamor for the truth,
Yet we all secretly crave pleasant lies,
Do not be a fool,
Do not attempt to transcend human nature.